The most predicatble thing with HIV is its unpredicatbility. Just when things start to look good it smacks me in the face to say "Im still here"! I went for a CT scan yesterday of my brain (yeah I still have one) and some more blood work. It seems like this week has been a very strange one for this pozzie boi. I dont know how to explain it but my head has been all over the place, ive been emotional, anxious, freaked out, spaced out, reality shifting, unconscious.. Hmm so I went to my loca...

I watched a really good movie the yesterday. It's called the Butterfly Effect. It had a really deep impact on me for the rest of the day. I wont go into what the movie is about because I think people should watch it, but basically it is about the Chaos theory and how everything effects everything. One of the main things that effected me from the movie was the question " what if?". What if I hadnt met the guy who gave me HIV.. would I still have become infected? What if I had pursued r...

Im one of these people who live life mostly day by day, not really knowing what is around the corner or what is going to happen next. I suppose this makes life a little exciting for some. There is no routine in my life. Every week things are different, events turn around or certain events happen which change the direction of my life. I guess this has happened since I became poz. Ive learnt to live life every day without having any great expectations on the future. So my life has been one ...

I wonder if this is true.. If you ignore it it will go away... Which one of these do you think will go away if ignored?

Well Ive been working heaps this week which has kept me away from the computer and keeping my mind busy. So I havent really had the chance to blog lately. But work is going great! Im really enjoying it and have been checkout chick this past week which has been fun meeting the customers as they leave and giving them a big smile and seeing the smile returned is great too. One great bit of news though is that for the first time ever in the past 14 years of being HIV positive I am now undet...

Well the past two days we have been hit by arctic conditions here in Oz. ... It snowed where it hasnt snowed before and we have had gale force winds and rain as well.. still not enough for the catchment but it tried its best. And thanks to Dharmas beenie my head was kept safe from the cold! I reckon she should market them! make stock now for the winter! People they are the warmest beenies I have ever worn.. maybe cause it was made with such love and the colours are that of fire! Who ...

Ok well we are having a major drought happening here in Oz. Acording to the statistics if we dont get 3 solid days of rain over the catchments we will be running out of water within two years. Now thats a major thing to consider for us aussies. The Bush fire season has been brought forward two months to start in August seeing it is so dry out there, believe me there is heaps of bush around where I live to burn that hasnt burnt out for over 30 years. Now I wanna try and list some water sav...

Well here it is folks... I woke up to this article on line this morning.. Link telling the world that a melbourne scientist has found that HIV is killed in the test tube by lemon juice! Now there has been a website for years going around that tells people with HIV to drink whole lemons with olive oil everyday and that it kills the virus in the system. Its been around for years, but has been ditched by scientists and organisations as a crank and people have been warned not to do it....

In JU there seems to be a wide range of people blogging. People with all sorts of backgrounds and experiences. What Im wondering is what is the age group of the people who blog on here? Am I being rude in asking how old are the people on here? Just to get an idea of the audience.. How old are you?? Im 31 almost 32. What does it matter? Well Id like to understand the different generations of people blogging and from what ideology they might have been brought up with.

This is a Tibetan Prayer wheel..the inscription reads "Om Mani Padme Hung" which means the Jewel in the Lotus. It is the essence of the Buddhas teaching. It is said that the prayer wheel when turned eminates the prayers into the universe for all beings to benefit. May all beings here on JU and throughout the Universe benefit from the turn of the Wheel. You can read more about the benefits of prayer wheels in this link which is really great! Link Benefit of Prayer Wheels

There is a syndrome named the "Lazarus Syndrome" and is attributed mainly to people with HIV or AIDS. Im sure we are all familiar with the biblical character Lazarus who was brought back to life by Jesus. Well its named Lazarus syndrome cause it means you prepare for death only to realise that it isnt going to happen so you start to prepare to live again. This has happened to me several times living with HIV. When I was first diagnosed my doctor had given me no longer than six to twelv...

I was so excited to get my mail today.. I got my beenie!! Dharma siad to me a couple of weeks ago that she was going to knit me a beenie. At the time I was really surprised cause for one noone has ever knitted me anything, and two we dont even know each other and she did it out of the kindness of her heart. For me this is such a big deal because I think that for someone to give like this without even knowing me then their heart really is golden. The beenie is great! It looks like i...

Ive just worked out I can log in from another location so If you got comments on your blog and they said "phoenixboi from sydney" then you will know it was me... Im still computer la la..LOL Anyhow I am in sydney at the moment. I have been to the drs to get my monthly check up and to get some more meds. They seem to be happy with me and dont want me to come back to see them until January which is a great thing. We discussed changing meds but I think it would be better for me at the moment ...

Hey JU users.. ive been here for a while now.. but still I think Im a little illiterate when it comes to using JU. Id like to add favourites to my blog list, but ive triued and I dont know how! can anyone help me.??

If you read my earlier article on a dream that I had the other night you will know what I am talking about.. Now I know it's Venice, but I did dream about rising flood waters and melting ice caps and I was telling my Mum in my dream about Venice. Was this a Premonition? What do you think ? Link