I woke up, its still 2004. Things are still the same, life has come around again to show me how unstable this virus can be on my life. I have been taken off one of medications because they think it is causing the hassles that I have been having lately. So Ive been off Efaverenz now for 3 days. But I stillseem to be feeling the same. So bye bye efavrenz, hopefully bye bye bizarre dreams and feeling off my face every night. The CT scan came back showing no signs of anything significant ...

Has anyone ever noticed that when you least expect it or need it or want it people start getting interested in you? Well the past couple of days I have had an influx of guys wanting to catch up with me and meet me. Is it because I have suddenly made myself unavailable? The UNiverse is playing amazing games with me at the moment. Im going out of my mind, the virus is playing with my body again, boys are interested in me again and Im getting heaps of work.. All sounds like some sort of d...

The most predicatble thing with HIV is its unpredicatbility. Just when things start to look good it smacks me in the face to say "Im still here"! I went for a CT scan yesterday of my brain (yeah I still have one) and some more blood work. It seems like this week has been a very strange one for this pozzie boi. I dont know how to explain it but my head has been all over the place, ive been emotional, anxious, freaked out, spaced out, reality shifting, unconscious.. Hmm so I went to my loca...

A friend of mine sent me this yesterday. I think its really relevant in my life at the moment. When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee... A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was f...

I watched a really good movie the yesterday. It's called the Butterfly Effect. It had a really deep impact on me for the rest of the day. I wont go into what the movie is about because I think people should watch it, but basically it is about the Chaos theory and how everything effects everything. One of the main things that effected me from the movie was the question " what if?". What if I hadnt met the guy who gave me HIV.. would I still have become infected? What if I had pursued r...

Im one of these people who live life mostly day by day, not really knowing what is around the corner or what is going to happen next. I suppose this makes life a little exciting for some. There is no routine in my life. Every week things are different, events turn around or certain events happen which change the direction of my life. I guess this has happened since I became poz. Ive learnt to live life every day without having any great expectations on the future. So my life has been one ...

I wonder if this is true.. If you ignore it it will go away... Which one of these do you think will go away if ignored?

Some people think that the internet is somewhere safe to hide. Some people think that when they put up a fake name they arent able to be traced. Some people think they can write anything and get away with it. Im like a ratter. I can smell shit from miles away. And I take great pleasure in exposing them. Hell hath no fury as a queens scorn. The masks are about to be ripped off.

I was thinking about Love today and I got sad. Love is a four letter word yet it means so much to so many people. We fight for it, we die for it, we suffer so much for it, Yet isnt love supposed to be something so beautiful and supposed to make us feel good? So I was thinking. If when we are supposedly in love that we suffer then is it really love? I mean is it the love that true love is supposed to be? We spend a great deal of our time searching for love. When we feel that we ar...

Well Ive been working heaps this week which has kept me away from the computer and keeping my mind busy. So I havent really had the chance to blog lately. But work is going great! Im really enjoying it and have been checkout chick this past week which has been fun meeting the customers as they leave and giving them a big smile and seeing the smile returned is great too. One great bit of news though is that for the first time ever in the past 14 years of being HIV positive I am now undet...

Well the past two days we have been hit by arctic conditions here in Oz. ... It snowed where it hasnt snowed before and we have had gale force winds and rain as well.. still not enough for the catchment but it tried its best. And thanks to Dharmas beenie my head was kept safe from the cold! I reckon she should market them! make stock now for the winter! People they are the warmest beenies I have ever worn.. maybe cause it was made with such love and the colours are that of fire! Who ...

Ok well we are having a major drought happening here in Oz. Acording to the statistics if we dont get 3 solid days of rain over the catchments we will be running out of water within two years. Now thats a major thing to consider for us aussies. The Bush fire season has been brought forward two months to start in August seeing it is so dry out there, believe me there is heaps of bush around where I live to burn that hasnt burnt out for over 30 years. Now I wanna try and list some water sav...

I have this fascination with looking at whats going on with the weather and watching predictions to see if they come true and also studying weather maps. When I was in the states I really wanted to catch a glimpse of a tornado..but it didnt happen, I was stuck in LA airport waiting for one to pass over to get to Chicago so my flight was delayed 6 hours. So Hopefully this will work and you can get to see the weather as its happening over where I live in Oz.. Courtesy of the Australian ...

Well here it is folks... I woke up to this article on line this morning.. Link telling the world that a melbourne scientist has found that HIV is killed in the test tube by lemon juice! Now there has been a website for years going around that tells people with HIV to drink whole lemons with olive oil everyday and that it kills the virus in the system. Its been around for years, but has been ditched by scientists and organisations as a crank and people have been warned not to do it....