Well a couple of days ago I wrote an article about Suicide and it's acceptance in society. Tonight it came home. My best mates lover is in a coma tonight. He took an overdose of his medication. He wrote a letter to his mum telling her how much he loves her, that he wants to be at peace and then he overdosed. His flatmate found him and took him to the hospital. Will he live or will he die? Will his wishes be fullfilled? Or will he wake to a life of misery due to complications of drug over...

It has now been 24 whole hours since I lit up. I have to tell you that I am struggling a little. My jaw is aching. Im trying to think of food to eat. I brought myself some chewing gum and have been madly trying to substitute the cigarette for the gum chewing. I know this will all pass soon. Im worried about being around people who smoke. Im determined though that Im going to give this the best shot that I can give it. Anyone got any tips? It is so hard!

I am Gay. I have HIV. So what? Does this give you the right to judge me? Does it mean im doomed to eternal damnation? Take a look at your own life. Take a look at what makes you so judgemental. Before my sexuality and my illness I am human. I have a heart and a soul just like you. Take a look in the mirror... does what I am make you feel so uncomfortable that you need to condemn me?

This weekend I gave up one addiction and replaced it with another. I have stopped smoking.. well I am trying. It has been almost 24 hours since my last cigarette. The craving is still there but I dont have any in the house and I am refusing to go buy any. Yesterday morning I woke up feeling amazingly good. Then I when I had a cigarette it instantly made my energy levels go down and I felt terrible. So that was it . No more. Anyhow I needed a distraction. So I discovered a site whe...

Well here it is... Just thought I'd be silly...

There is alot of controversy at the moment here in Oz about Turkey digging up the bones of the diggers in Anzac Cove in Turkey. People are up in arms calling it a disgrace and a desecration of "sacred" ground. For thos not in the know ANZAC cove in Turkey is a place called Gallipoli where the soldiers from the Australian and New Zealand army fought with the enemies in World War One.. it is a place very sacred to the Australian People as lots of loives were lost. It is where thousands trav...

Today is the first day it really feels like Autumn. It's a beautiful day outside but the air is crisp and I've noticed that the Sun has changed positions in the sky. Everything has changed and is constantly changing. Already we are into March. Does time go quicker as we get older? Im really looking forward to the move now. Still have to find a place to stay but have called all the agents and they are looking out for us. Im sure the right place will come up at the right time. It...

Well it is official. Im moving. Not only am I moving but im moving 1000kms north from here to a place I lived before called Byron Bay. This is the place I became HIV positive, the place where my whole life changed. But im going back, this time my best mate is coming with me and im going there working and living as a different person to the way I was back then. I've got 4 weeks to move, meaning Ive gotta start packing and getting things organised. Im really excited about all th...

I've got an old 1983 Honda Accord. Recently in order to pass it for registration I had to have some rust cut out of it. So at the moment it is patchy white with grey patches. It needs two new tyres, it has power windows but the back windows won't go back up if they are put down. I drive it cause it gets me places. Im not a rev head or really into cars BUT... Some days I wish I had a car that just went. Didnt require much maintenance and had a CD player in it. Somedays like today. I ...

One of the biggest laughs I have nearly everyday is watching the Jerry Springer show. Im sure most people are aware of what it is. It is such a laugh seeing these stupid people get up on stage and bare all sometimes literally in order to get their personal lives on the television airing their dirty laundry for all the world to see. Sometimes I wonder if there is some intelligent life out in the universe watching these programs thinking "what the f#%k"??!" is this what humanity has come...

I want to stop smoking It is really hard to do at the moment. I can't really go on any of the patches cause they interact with my other meds. If I do it it has to be pure will power. What is it that makes me want to keep smoking? I dont like it anymore. It just needs to stop.

Finally after all the airport dramas and hassles with getting home I finally arrived back home on Tuesday afternoon after waiting inline for 2 hours for check in and then my plane was supposed to leave at 11.30am but instead left at 1.30pm, meaning I finally arrived in Sydney by 3pm that afternoon. Apparently I get a free flight from it all and am waiting now after their email stating that they are going to personally call each person affected by the delays. I spent a few days in Sydne...

Well it's round two for me leaving Melbourne today. After the dramas of yesterday with the evacuation, I called and reconfirmed my flight they told me to get there at least an hour early so Im going to get there at least an hour and a half early. There are already huge cues and people aren't happy. Anyhow Im so looking forward to getting back. Here's hoping! Keep your fingers crossed for me!