What is with the recent spate of suicidals on JU?
There seems to be a big cry out for help at the moment from some recent bloggers wanting to end it all.
Is life really that painful that you want to end it?
I spend most of my life trying to find ways to live. Trying to prolong life by taking a huge amount of medication that is extremely toxic to my body yet it is supposed to help fight a virus that is slowly taking it over. I try to manage a range of side effects ranging from extreme nausea to constant fatigue. Im trying to build up my body so it can take the pain that it is going through and the pain that is inevitably to come. Im trying to fight to live.
Why? Why do I do this? Because I realise that life is worth the battle, that it is in this battle that we become stronger as individuals and as a human race. That as an individual Im not going to let this virus or anyone else dictate to me how Im going to live or die.
When things look really bad and I feel like all is at a loss I remember that there are people worse off than me. That I have it good. That there are people that love me even though at times it gets really fucking lonely. We are meant to go through these times, the dark nights of the soul so that we can heal ourselves from the pain and maybe in the process learn more about ourselves so that we can help others and ourselves. We arent given in life what we cannot handle. We must be pretty special to be given these challenges. We must be worth it.
Who gives a fuck about others some people say? Do they really give a fuck about me? Well yeah they do. JU is a good example of this, as an online community we are helping each other, we are there for each other and we do care for each other.
Come on people. It really isnt that bad. There are people worse off than you on this planet. If we want to whinge about our lives then check out what the rest of the world is going through and put your life in perspective. Be strong. Love yourself cause unless you do noone else is going to. Show everyone out there that you do mean something, and in your own way try and make a difference to this planet.
Your gonna die someday. Be it today, tommorrow or in ten years time. Make the most of it. Be thankful for what you got and for what you havent got. Things may seem bad now but really they could be much worse. Show yourself and others that you gave it your best shot, that you are a fighter, a bearer of light, a damn good human being, a rebel who isnt going to give up. Your part of this drama called life. Without you it wont be the same.