Have you ever loved someone so much that you would give your life for them? This was an article written on here a couple of days ago. It caused me to think alot about who I would die for.
There is one person in my life who means the most to me. He is my best mate. We have been through some tough times together and some really beautiful moments together as well. Thing is at the moment we arent talking with each other. We had a really stupid argument last weekend and ever since then we havent spoken with each other.
You know when you dont have something is when you truley value it more. Not that I didnt value him when he was there but when you miss someone it is always the time when you really long for them and their company. We humans have a funny side to us in our emotions. We have it, we dont want it, we dont have it we want it. But when love is involved things are magnified a thousand times more.
So I sent him a message today. Wondering if we are ever going to talk again or if this was the end. I dreaded the reply and even more so not getting a reply. But I got one. He needs some space some time to think about things. I sent one back saying I will give him time and space physically but I will not stop thinking about him. It is too hard to stop thinking about someone when you love them so much.
I spent some time at the beach today. Usually he would come down on the weekends and we would share with each other what has happened over the week and laugh. So this weekend I went to the beach on my own and sat and looked at the ocean. It felt kinda good to have my space and just sit there on my own. I was reminded about how things change. How precious it is when we are with the people we love and how that can change in an instant. Things change. Nothing lasts forever. So I gotta learn to enjoy what I have while it lasts, always in the back of my mind though will be the thought.."this is not forever, make the most of it".
Then it is going to be a time to let go. Let go of what we hold onto. Because things change so much and it is all so unpredictable, I guess we need to understand when it is the time to let things go, so we can move on and in the process grow.