Well Im back in Sydney for a few days, well Im going back home today.
Since being up here I have had a few revelations about my life and where I want things to go.
* Im going to go back to the gym.
Im not happy with the way my body is looking and feeling right now. I've been wasting alot of time and energy doing useless things (well things that havent made me happy) so I am going to channel this energy into more positive forces in my life. Improving my body image is going to be one of them. Besides making me stronger it will also help my immune system and help my body resist infections. And in it all I will feel better about myself.
* Im going to continue my dream of becoming a natural therapist.
In recent articles Ive written about Reiki and also mentioned Bach Flower Therapy. Well throughout my life I have always been drawn into these therapies and it has always been a career goal of mine to help myself and others in this way. In the past situations have always hindered me from doing this, but my heart feels that this is the way to go so I am going to finally put my ass into gear and get going. So im going to look into specific courses to help me get there.
* Love or Spirituality?<
Since the age of 16 I have always been guided by certain forces which have helped me throughout my life. It is becoming clearer to me that I am not necessarily meant to be in a "long term relationship" in this lifetime. Im not giving up on this idea although I am a little more certain that the people that have come into my life which I have "fallen" for are people who I have helped along the way, and they have helped me. Once this has been worked out they really dont need to be attached to me anymore. Im not saying that if someone comes along Im not going to pursue love with them, just saying that I dont think it is something I should tear myself up for if it doesnt happen. I think there is more to my life than setteling down with someone. I think that through the experiences that I have had in this life I can help alot of people and have alot of people help me as well. So in it all I am going to listen more to my spirit, my soul when making decisions, rather than turn the other way.
* Im getting a pet.
Im going to think about getting myself a companion. I want a little dog to travel this life with me. Any suggestions on what might be a good sort? Im thinking of a Jack Russell or mini foxy. Something small that wont cost me the earth and has a bit of intelligence as well.
So here are a few goals of mine that have been made more clear to me this weekend than in the past. Well I am more determined now than ever before to achieve this. I guess the recent issues with Marcus and my birthday coming up in a few weeks time have sparked this on.