Since having HIV the word positive has meant alot of different things to me.
Pozzie, Poz, Positive.
It's really ironic that the term for living with HIV is Positive.
People keep saying to me be positive. I am. Ive learnt to live with this. Being Positive. Even though I would rather be negative. Im positive. Seems a funny play on words that we use.
The virus works by attacking the immune system. More speciafically it attacks the part of the immune system called the T Cells or Lymphocytes. They are the cells in our body that travel around and spot all the foreign bodies in our system and they attach themselves to it and munch them up.
Why the virus is so effective in taking over the immune system is because these Tcells dont recognise it as a virus. It hides itself in the very DNA of our body and pretends it is one of them, a Tcell. So the body can't recognise it is a virus. The body thinks the virus is part of it. Its a very clever virus. Almost like it has its own consciousness. Its own lifeform.
A bit like the Alien movie with Sigournie Weaver.
So Ive come up with a little theory.
My body doesnt know itself. I dont know myself. So Ive undertaken a journey, a quest to find myself. To find out what it is to be me. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
Im learning to be Positive, in the true sense of the term. To see life for what it is. To make the most of all the experiences I have, turn all the experiences into positive ones.
Blogging is a part of this for me.